tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5659673.post114546353516373626..comments2023-10-16T21:15:12.255+08:00Comments on Catholic+Linux+Monkey: Mane nobiscum, DomineAntoniahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12128582802233208751noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5659673.post-1145534933533827112006-04-20T20:08:00.000+08:002006-04-20T20:08:00.000+08:00More often than not I find myself trapped in this ...More often than not I find myself trapped in this great mysterious question. "What is the will of God for me?" After lavishing such great gifts of knowledge and wisdom on me, I know that he wants me to do something for him. But what exeatly does he want of me. The saints had many great visions that strengthened and inspired them to pursue His will for them, but here I am pursuing his Holy will without a dream or Vision. They were lucky indeed who experienced such great spiritual consolations, but I think that those who are able to motivate themselves and forge ahead without any consolations find greater merit in His sight. <BR/><BR/>Yes, the will of God is a journey to the unknown, a gradual unfolding of His plan for each and everyone of us. An old hymn puts it accross to us when in a stanza it said:<BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/>"By and by, when the morning comes<BR/><BR/>When the saints of God are gathering home<BR/><BR/>We shall tell the story - how we overcame<BR/><BR/>We will understand it better by and by"<BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/>And so, while waiting on Him to make his way plain to me if he wills, I must costantly think, plan an act within the limits of the knowledge and resources he has given to me. I must strive each day to see the numerous needs surging round my surroundings, to identify myself with the suffering Christ, to cheer up the hearts and faces of all burdened with suffering, guilt and sin. To extend his healing hands of love, mercy and compassion to all I meet along the way. <BR/><BR/><BR/>Not what I want to be , but what he wants me to become (the state of life to which I have been attracted to by super abundant graces). I lived my early life more in solitude/quietness to myself and others, I felt the urge of giving myself humbly to him in Holy Priesthood as a Reverend Brother, but my parents refusal to allow me go then seemed like the end of the world for me. I had heard of the evil lifestyes of youths on Campus and I thought that going to the seminary then would keep me away from evil and help me grow stronger in faith. <BR/><BR/>But then, as Gold is tested in the furnace of fire, there was need for my faith in God to be tested by the community / lifestyle of my fellow brothers and sisters. But did I actually pass the test? Did my style of life change while on campus? Did my stay on campus prevent me from learning more about my faith in God? What if I hadn't gone to campus, what would have been the fate of those who needed my words / example to lift them out from the flames of ignorance and vice. Fear and courage are two words that shine out. <BR/><BR/><BR/>Even now I stand all the more confused. Marriage or Priesthood - Where do I belong? Single Blessed life is still another vocation I love. <BR/><BR/>I have suceeded in preparing myself to answer His noble Call to <BR/>service. I have grown up now to have a special love/liking for these three vocations, but then Here I am about to make only one choice. The choice I make I will face. And whatever choice I make must not deter me from fulfilling God's ultimate will for me - to become a vessel of holiness and love . A vessel leading others to holiness and love. <BR/><BR/><BR/>Please pray for me Sis. Anthonia, even as I also remember you in my prayers that we may constantly respond to/co-operate with his Grace each day as we gradually come to the complete knowledge of his will for each and everyone of us. <BR/><BR/><BR/>Mother Mary, you quietly pondered God's will for you. Enlighten us in our doubts, Guide us with your Wisdom and constantly rekindle the fire of devotion in us especially at those moments when our oil of devotion runs dry and we seem to cling to our selfish passions or loose confidence in God.<BR/> <BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/>PRAYER FOR SERENITY<BR/><BR/>Oh, God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change<BR/><BR/>Courage to change the things we can <BR/><BR/>And wisdom to know the difference<BR/><BR/><BR/><BR/>.................................<BR/><BR/>WISHING YOU A HAPPY RESURRECTION!<BR/><BR/>.................................Virginhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09733444413301911376noreply@blogger.com